support me @ 2010-11-16T14: 45:00
not understand me nor I, dammit. Anyway, I reluctantly went traveling and I've been a bit fríay a little distant. And it, too. But finishing the trip and returned all my head is starting to say I would have liked things to be otherwise. I would have liked him to be different and I was different and we were much more affectionate and journey a positive mark on our relationship.
beginning to think that I have wanted to fall in love and he is a wonderful guy and I think entnces no, it is not, and I will not fall in love with someone like that do not understand and not interested enough, and I think that is kind to all except me and think I want something from him can not give me nor my boyfriend can give me, I'm looking for a model of personality that does not exist or is impossible to find. Someone I might love and are passionate to me. Why is it so difficult, I do not know. But I understand, because even myself I love me. I do not know why I do not know where I want to be. He sings and dances, and it sounds interesting, if I sang and danced, if I had the body in good shape and do not eat kitkats, do you want? And it would suit me? Why am thinking what should I do to like when I'm not even sure she wants to make you love me? Why do you ascribe to him the guilt of it was a cold trip, why me ascribe to me? Why do I feel like I was unable to provoke feelings and I became me in a shit? Why What I care about feelings now?
Things that make me look very cool for him, but not for me. And I want to do cool things, but I do not see what. Wait, do cool things qiuero or want to do things that he would look cool? I'm looking aceptacióny what I felt, what I interpreted as a rejection. Only the rejection that I can only say with reality testing is mine.
And then his leap rolls, cold, hold me not sleeping, not excited about anything, not being interested in my life, no scrubbing, do not think good menus, salt over rice, not lie on the couch until the last day, not showering together, do not know.
Somehow, the story disappoints me, but it is not really important, right? Is bullshit. It makes no sense.
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